I Am Still in the Spiral

A field note from the edge of becoming

When I am standing at the edge of something meaningful,
I can taste fear in my mouth.
I can feel the terror in my body.
The what-ifs start taking over.

That’s my brain—struggling to keep me safe.
It wants predictability, certainty, a straight line.
But my soul?
My soul knows exactly what to do with all of this...
if I don’t let the survival instinct take control.

The imperfection of this process—this way, this spiral—is not a flaw.
It’s the reason it works.

Because I’m not walking into this as someone with all the answers.
I’m walking into it as someone still in it.

And maybe that’s why I can do this work at all.
Because I’m not reaching down from a pedestal—I’m reaching across.
Taking the hands of other spiral-walkers,
helping them steady when the fear rises.

I’ve felt the part that says, “this is not safe… don’t do it.”
I’ve also heard the deeper part whisper, “do it anyway.”

This is not a tidy process.
It’s not always empowering.
It’s often terrifying.

But this is the way of the Reclaimer.

We don’t walk this path because it’s easy.
We walk it because we’re not willing to stay asleep.

We walk it because someone has to go first.
And maybe—that someone is you.

🔥 You are not the break in the line.

You are the bloom.

If this resonates, this is the heart of Lineage Reclamation™—my sacred offering inside Second Generation Therapy™. It’s not therapy alone. It’s threshold work. Legacy work. Soulwork.